Living and Learning…Well, Living Anyway
The above quote, is one that has had many forms, and been dealt out in several variations, by a slew of different authors. Just call me grace face, as I have had to be slapped a lot by grace, in the face. A lesson I have to keep learning is what it means to love people. Sometimes I am not very good at it, and frankly, more often than not, really suck at doing so, but I am learning. That is the one silver lining I guess. Life is not about whether or not we have weaknesses, we all do, it is about what we do with those weaknesses that matters. To any of you who are in my life that I care about, and I have not done a great job showing it, I am sorry. Just know, I am trying to learn, I truly am. Love is something that for the greater parts of my life was absent, so now it takes some learning as to actually know how to do so. Every day I have to deconstruct the decades of false love I once knew, and reconstruct the true love I now know. God tears us town in ourselves to build us up again in Him…and He is building me, I just take a lot of rebuilding. When it comes down to it I am a self centered, egotistical, jerk, and more often than not I care more about my own needs, than the needs of others, BUT I am in Christ, and while those qualities may describe what I do, they do not define who I am. Here is to learning, and more importantly to loving.