I have never been the sort of person to view their self as “charming”. Smart? Sure. Cultured? Somewhat. When it comes to charm though I am about as charming as Gamera tearing through Tokyo.(Obscure B movie reference.) Maybe Godzilla would have gotten the point across better? Anyway, I say this to show you I am an insecure person. We all on one level or another have insecurities, some more binding than others, the fact remains we all are insecure. “Security” is a word heard a lot in the Christian life, aspects of it we understand better than others, but nonetheless a part of who we are that is neglected or not often lived in. In my life as well as the lives of others I have seen three common areas of security that seem to be struggles across the board. In Christ we are infinitely secure, yet for people with so much security we can be horribly insecure. Recently meditation throughout 1 Corinthians has given me some things to think about.
“ Now as a concession, not a command, I say this.  I wish that all were as I myself am. But each has his own gift from God, one of one kind and one of another. To the unmarried and the widows I say that it is good for them to remain single as I am.  But if they cannot exercise self-control, they should marry. For it is better to marry than to burn with passion.” (1 Corinthians 7:6-9 ESV)
A starting point where many a Christians insecurities are strong and is a BIG one at that is the area of relationships. In particular for Christians this pertains more to the subject of marriage than anything. For some reason we as believers have bought into the idea that God has promised us a spouse. Not only that but many in Christ have a sense of entitlement regarding the things they “want” in this figurative husband or wife. God made people to have partners, I get that, but he never intended for us to make the potential for a partner the pinnacle of our Christian life or our motivation for following Him. Here is the reality as if I really need to say it. GOD HAS NOT PROMISED US A SPOUSE! That is the reality of it my friends! At the same time, just like our locations and statuses, God does not care if we are married or not.Yes marriage is a wonderful thing and something even I myself would not mind experiencing, but that is not the summit of the Christian life. Not at all! Paul is not giving commands or promises, but more his opinion on what he has seen work. Our goal should be to live for Him, and if he does provide a spouse, awesome, if not, then He has not, and not let that make or break our walk with Him. I know that is hard. For me many of my closest friends are married and living that part of their life. It sucks, and it makes me want it that much more, but that is not where God has me and I have to accept that. Why waste our time longing for what He could have for us instead of pursuing what He does have for us?
“ Only let each person lead the life that the Lord has assigned to him, and to which God has called him. This is my rule in all the churches.  Was anyone at the time of his call already circumcised? Let him not seek to remove the marks of circumcision. Was anyone at the time of his call uncircumcised? Let him not seek circumcision.  For neither circumcision counts for anything nor uncircumcision, but keeping the commandments of God.  Each one should remain in the condition in which he was called.  Were you a bondservant when called? Do not be concerned about it. (But if you can gain your freedom, avail yourself of the opportunity.)  For he who was called in the Lord as a bondservant is a freedman of the Lord. Likewise he who was free when called is a bondservant of Christ.  You were bought with a price; do not become bondservants of men.  So, brothers, in whatever condition each was called, there let him remain with God.” (1 Corinthians 7:17-24 ESV)
The next area of insecurity amongst many of us is in where/who we are. This entails where we are geographically (our physical location) as our social status. Geographically we can be insecure wondering if we are where God wants us to be or if where He has us is not good enough. It is kind of the mindset that God could use us better somewhere else. This is a terrible lie. God is not limited by location. What God wants to teach/use us for is not dependent on geography, and as long as we walk with Him we will have the opportunities to learn regardless of what our location is. We do not have to change our location to serve God any better than what we presently are. At the same time our statuses do not have to change to better serve God either. God can use anyone anywhere and the Christian who lives a Godly life spending their life working at McDonald’s is every bit just as important as a missionary to a foreign country. Do we really think we have to obtain certain statuses for God to use us? If that is the case we are only rationalizing our own sinful desires and insecurities. God used a donkey for crying out loud! We are in Christ! We are! What more can we want or need to be? Are we so ignorant to limit or view rather or not he can use us? The whole idea of living in a certain place or having a certain status/job, that is what the world thinks makes a person significant. How dare we pin that system on God? Shame on us. Because of Christ, God has made the provision for security in where we are and what we do. Just as the people of Corinth did not have to change certain positions or statuses to serve God, neither do we. That is the whole idea of positional truth and sharing the common bond of Christ no matter who we are or what we do in life.
“[12:1] Now concerning spiritual gifts, brothers, I do not want you to be uninformed.  You know that when you were pagans you were led astray to mute idols, however you were led.  Therefore I want you to understand that no one speaking in the Spirit of God ever says “Jesus is accursed!” and no one can say “Jesus is Lord” except in the Holy Spirit.  Now there are varieties of gifts, but the same Spirit;  and there are varieties of service, but the same Lord;  and there are varieties of activities, but it is the same God who empowers them all in everyone.  To each is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good.  For to one is given through the Spirit the utterance of wisdom, and to another the utterance of knowledge according to the same Spirit,  to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by the one Spirit,  to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy, to another the ability to distinguish between spirits, to another various kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues.  All these are empowered by one and the same Spirit, who apportions to each one individually as he wills.” (1 Corinthians 12:1-11 ESV)
One last major aspect of insecurity I have seen and experienced is in our gifts and abilities. God was not just taking a shot in the dark when He made us. In my opinion we have the gifts and abilities that we do for a reason, not through happenstance or coincidence. I would love to be an extrovert who can evangelize brilliantly or talk to anyone at anytime, but I cannot, that is not how I have been hardwired. Often I find myself asking God “why can’t I have” in regards to the abilities and gifts of others I know. The long and short is because I cannot. God gave me what He did for a purpose and by being insecure in the abilities we do have, it is the equivalent to saying He does not know what He is doing. Yeah that has worked out for many people in scripture. As a side note, if you believe the previous sentence just read the last bit of Job. Our insecurities regarding what we cannot do keep us from developing in what we can. Every one of us function and have been intentionally created as a specific part of the body of Christ. You are going to get nowhere fast if you are an ear trying to be an arm and vice versa. At one point in time I wanted to be a tribal missionary. I thoroughly convinced myself tribal missions were the definite article of Christian service, and I was going to do it. I did not, obviously, and it was because I tried to be something I was not. Apart from teaching I had not a single passion or ability for what was needed to work in a tribe. Through Him I saw this thankfully, but others do not come to this conclusion until it is too late. Grow in the abilities and passions God has made you with and you will see know greater results in your life and ministry skills.
Some of us may always struggle with insecurity, and that is ok so long as we cling to Him who has made us with a security that is eternal. Our insecurities give us yet another reason for dependency upon Him, and cause us to further recognize that without Christ we cannot do “it”, whatever “it” is. As I have said before and I will continue to do so, we can be encouraged for we are all in this together.