If I could choose one word to sum up the theme of what God has been teaching me as of late, the word I would choose is “dependency”. Yes dependency, a word the rests a lot upon its shoulders in relation to God and man. Being created to be dependent on God, even before sin, we still have that choice to depend on Him, or not. When we accept and believe in Christ that is the ultimate act of dependency upon God. With that the life of a Christian is a string of decisions and choices determining if and when we are truly dependent on Him.
As it is with most issues or problems a rule of thumb is that there is usually deeper rooted things resulting from such. What started as a lack of dependency turned into a cornucopia of matters all seemingly feeding off the other.
What happens when we lack dependency on God. . .
1. We will not be fulfilled. If we are not dependent upon God are dependency must be relying on someone or something. Having our stock place on people or things in such a way will surely and fastly show just how little matter apart from God can leave you complete. You find yourself scavenging for what little momentary pleasure you can find. Relationships, media, whatever, time will eventually tell you fulfillment will never arrive. With that instead of seeing it as yourself being the problem, you the the person or the thing that let you down as the cause for your toubles. You may go through the motions of being a Christian, but the heart rests outside the things of God.
Which leads to. . .
2. Our vulnerability. As the hurts we allowed ourselves to be afflicted with begin to accumulate in turn we become more vulnerable. People who are fully dependent upon God cannot be vulnerable because they are living in their position to the fullest extent. Placing oure complete trust on a fallen world with fallen people, believers or not, will burn us. With every burning the barriers become stronger. We lessen our fellowship and contain our thoughts and feelings inside us. Even with people walking in Christ, we allow ourself to be come distant because of the pain experienced outside of God. Feelings of inadequacy cause us to believe the lies of being lesser, and paranoia tells us we are being judged even when we are not. Vulnerability is Satans’ tactic to immobilize and deceive. God works through us as believers to minister to others. We are the worker bees. So not only does not letting people minister to us keep us from receiving encouragement from Him, but it keeps us from also ministering to others.
Eventually. . .
3. Bitterness takes hold. A hurt person held up by barriers can only view life from the inside looking out. We become bitter in our interactions, lacking compassion and love. Without those components we can only be half of who we are intended. Sarcasm and cyncism produce the face of jest despit the truth behind comments and remarks. Feelings of being lesser lead to behaviors or attempts to make others feel lesser and in essence the cycle to which you are in bondage to can potentially spread to others. In some ways you may still walk with God but your growth is stunted and not at its maximun potential because you are not living at your maximum potential. For me there are many times where I say things that appear to be jokes when in reality I hurt and I want to bring that person or make them appear to be on the same level I believe the lie of that I am. Potentially lack of dependence on God not only brings us to a rounabout of sin, but also selfishness and inability to impact other positively.
Certainly there are plenty more negative effects from lack of dependency, but personally, this is what I have been experiencing. Complete self reliance means absolute independence from God. We have been given the ability to live as a part of Christ so we can have a relationship with Him. When we are fully dependent and rest upon that there is nothing else in the universe we need, absolutely nothing. A train of though often present is that were lesser than Christ. We have a relationship with Christ and Christ relays that to God. That is not the case. We are a part of Christ. When we believe and accept Him we a part of who He is. When that happens we have a direct relationship with God the Father. By believing we are anything lesser Satan has already won. With that seed planted the effects of lacking dependency can run absolutely wild leaving us feeling alone and leading a lie. No matter what the cost seek and live in truth. Whatever is holding you back let it go. It will never be worth it. Talk to someone, stop doing, stop seeing, whatever you need to do to be all you were meant to be in Christ, do it.